Phobia for “I Do”
When I hear people say they have commitment issues, I can understand.
No, I mean I Can partially relate.
In my case? I’m not scared of the commitment that happens whilst in a relationship. No! That’s just the tip of the iceberg.
What scares me is the commitment you need to own up to after saying “I do”.
I never thought I’d say this, but I’m scared of getting married.
I can remember how ridiculous my female friends sound to me when they casually say “they have no plans of getting married”.
Now, the thought of getting married to one man and spending the rest of my life with him sends frozen chills down my spine. Phew!!!
Wait!!! Review this with me!
I grew up in a loving family and saw my parents live in love and unity. I have always idolized the idea of getting married, staying in love with my partner, starting a family, and living happily ever after.
A few years down the line, those dreams seem like a life sentence to me. Each passing day, I feel the time coming near and I freak out.
Oh lord. Oh no! How do I leave the streets of freedom? How do I spend 24 hours of my everyday life with one man and probably a few minions (Kids) later on? How do I subject my body to the change of childbearing? How do I give up my whole life after saying “I do”. ???
Can somebody tell me “How”??? Nobody?
Phew!!
Okay. Here comes my partner. He places a kiss on my lips and touches my hair so tenderly. Arghhhh!! He’s so beautiful, so perfect.
The way he looks at me!! Like a goddess.
He kisses my lips and locks eyes with me. In those eyes, I see love, genuine affection, peace, security, and perfection.
While he walks away, I stare at his adorable backside. I won with this man for real.
He’s going to ask me to marry him one of these days. I feel it and I know it.
And it scares me.
Do I want to get married?
Lord help me. Please!
